<i><b>Wicked Alice Poetry Journal
wicked alice| winter 2009



Sarah Gardner


What Writing Is

Quiet thoughts grow crowless. Silver rustle,
floodline spindle.  Finally, the water

faces itself: a rock glossed naked where
the current parts, storehouse of a broken peak.

Every tree here is a locked box, every thorn
a collar buttoned to the top, and yet

among the mosses: wild garlic, thyme.
Being conversant, I know all exchanges

begin on the tongue.  Being human, I want
a taste.   Sweat carries me sunward, minutely,

all the while.  Beneath the canopy, wasps
pit their young in a paper hurricane

dry as a pharaoh’s heart a thousand years in
an earthen jar.  None so born grow on honey. 
 



What Writing Is, Also

Upon the blond lake, a woman rowing crosshanded.
Her boat, all tacks and ribs showing, is a map, a
plan,

a piece of ground sent shore to shore, comparing.
She feels her heartbeat burl through her back,

her forearms unlashing the distant bank.  She knows
a home for what it is.  Rounding a shingled island,

her boat flares crimson, wick beneath her.  This is
the hour the sun steps from the chamber, the hour

the forest whistles a change of shifts, just before
an owl unbars his eyesight and shoulders his wings.

The world prays thus, in doubles: in wingbeats and
clasped hands, in the split-halves of seeds, in the
oars

being lifted from their locks by the rower.  The lake
from the dock now is pewter, an upturned bell; the
boat

a clapper lolling. Where the rower climbs the bank,
darkness echoes.  It is not too late to come to love.

 



Visitor's Guide


In the first story, no one drowns
in the crescent rivers of the sky

or loses the pull of magnetic north
footing their way through affection’s
spired terrain.
                You get a mirrorhouse
of eyes, even in the dark you can see
all colors, and each is a conjugate
of the verb to breathe.
            After the first
spoonful of honey, the taste stays
always on your tongue and informs
your tears
        so that sobbing becomes
        an act of sweetness.

The second story is the same, but no one
tells you.  Runes lose their prophecy
as does the tea leaves’ humid unfurl.

Lost in a forest, you hear wood wrens
chitter, but you have forgotten
their language of Braille.

            It takes a whole life
to observe the caution of the sun moving
east to west, or to know who you are.

Come the third story, you begin to respect
the makers of myth for giving angels
arms and wings
            when nothing
in nature gets both-outside fable’s
nine gates, no one leaves this earth

and carries it also.  And you sense this
may be rightly so, and enjoy the sensation
of fingers and toes
            instead of talons,
which you will receive in the fourth story.

 

 


Equinox

Day without context,
biteless, printless,
though it stays outside.
That much, at least.

Against the glass. 
a chill steadies itself,
soot of frost
upon the dark window.

One of a deck
of months in a
a nameless winter,

a slurry of news ink
and exhaust
below a sodden
trash heap of stars.

How long have we
been here, pinch-ribbed
in back and
up front, gaping?

Along the earth’s jawlines,
mountain ranges
go blue in the gums.

Dog teeth,
in my last dream,
fell out my mouth.
And bird teeth,
a child’s milk teeth.

So it is, you
gone, and me
sleeping, March.
 



Blue Mountain


The pines this morning, still damp
with last night’s cries, are cold

as I am cold, though one of us
is sharpening into a long, dark blade
of forest. 
             Along its edge, the lake
is laid out like an empty dress.
Someone has fled
             wanting to come back,
wanting to fit migration and flight
into the same suitcase, even if it means
taking nothing else.

In their small flocks of two or four,
loons have returned following
the toss of stars.
        All night they cry out
the glacial notes packed heavy
in the sawhouse of their bones.

Every question I want to ask is
one question: how will I leave.

Like a pulse retreating from the tremor
of the throat.
               Like a violet tucking
head under wing.   
            Like icemelt
running rootward to rise again
to melt, again.
                Will I find in time
my mapself, will that self take the lead?







Author of“How To Study Birds,” a chapbook collection from
Dancing Girl Press, Sarah Gardner is a poet and
teacher whose work has appeared in many journals
including Borderlands, The Cortland Review, Calyx, and
Cranky.  She was recently named a finalist for the
Bechtel Prize.  Currently Sarah lives in Iowa and
teaches for St. Ambrose University.